About 2 weeks ago my gf of nearly 2 years cheated on me with another guy after a night of dancing. Long story short but she was frustrated at the way I was treating her and it culminated in her doing this. I was never abusive at all, I guess I just didn't show up when she wanted me to and showed a lack of care. I am still with her and we are trying to work through it but it is very difficult.

I asked for some of the details and now I wish I didn't haha. Apparently they started have sex pretty much straight away when they got back to his place and he was being pretty rough and freaky. He then pulled out and ripped off the condom and decided to shoot across her body and face. Imagine having to hear that as her bf of 2 years who is totally in love? Lmao. The facial wasn't consensual on her part.

She said it was only a 'drizzle' and nothing compared to what I can do where she said it is like I am decorating a cake lol. It sounds like it was just one or two spurts or something. I have been sat here for about a week just thinking of that moment all the time basically and I am trying to move past it. I think it's because I place so much weight on an act like that, and I'm sure it is something you guys will understand too. We know that is a special moment in sex and to think it happened to her is brutal and makes me feel emasculated in a way.

She boosted my confidence in other ways like saying my dick was bigger, I am better in bed and that I have a better body, and by the sounds of it a bigger cumshot but STILL she lay there with another man's load on her.

For me it would be a simple case of asking for a crazy sex night with her but for religious reasons she is deciding to be celibate. Crazy right? I'm not sure it will last and she has regretted it, felt pain and wants to stick with me.

Something like that fucks you up to the core. Just wanted to share my story but I guess any advice would be great as well.