You don't have to be so hard on yourself. I agree with all that was written above ...

Take your time, have a chat with weaze and I'm sure all can be solved.
Have in mind that yes, we all enjoy what you post ! If you run out of ideas take a look around in here and you might come up with sth very interesting ! For solo action I mean.

Cheer up honey !! Trust me, few women would do what you do and I bet weaze appreciates that !